Day 3 of 50

First of all, I can't thank you all enough for your prayers, love, support, and care you have shown to Dave and I and our little family. We have been amazed by everyone's thoughtfulness and generosity. Your hope, faith, and confidence help to buoy us up during this difficult time.
My parents have graciously welcomed us into their home, and I couldn't ask to be in a more comfortable place or be better cared for.

I am keeping "busy" by reading magazines, watching tv, sleeping, eating, and keeping in touch with family and friends. My next goal in this process is to make it to 24 weeks (March 11) when I can then be readmitted to the hospital and remain there as long as possible, until delivery. So I have approximately 50 days of home bedrest, hence the title of this post.

My situation is much more difficult emotionally than physically. Sure, I have some normal discomforts of pregnancy and struggle with the never-ending quest to "get comfortable," but my hips and back don't hurt so bad when I never have to stand on them! Needless to say, my mom makes me wonderfully delicious meals and is always asking what else sounds good or wondering what treat she can make for me. This experience would really be quite fun if there just wasn't so much to worry about.

I'm not going to delve into all my worries, because really I have no control over them. I try not to stress about the things which are out of my control, which is almost everything at this point. I know that our babies' lives are in the hands of the Lord and He has a plan for every child. I put my faith and trust in Him and know that everything will work out the way it is supposed to. My faith continues to grow as He continues to grant our family another day to spend together.

I want to enjoy every minute I have with my babies, whether they be inside or outside my body. I love feeling their little kicks and turns, and I can't wait for Dave to be able to feel them as well. We have been taking lots of pictures of my growing belly and embrace it for all it holds. I pray to be able to hold them when they are big and strong enough to survive this world, and although I look forward to that day I hope it doesn't come for a very long time.

Thank you again for all your prayers and love. It means more to us than words can tell.